The Sunshine in Life

Well, it's been such a long time since I posted last...... I don't post because I feel I have nothing to say that anybody would be interested in. I think it comes from low self esteem, I should work on that. I should be chanting to myself 21 times a day 'I'm great! I'm amazing! I'm worth it!'. Maybe then my attitude would change about myself..............apparently it takes 21 times to change the 'old message'.

I am at work and should be working, however, motivation evades me. Pathetic excuse isn't it? My left shoulder is aching terribly (my back is severly out), my eyes are sore (because I am tired as I have been having trouble sleeping) and I am annoyed that my coffee doesn't taste as good as it should (someone different to my usual girl made it). But do you know what? Today is a wonderful day! The sun is shining! How I have missed the sun over the past few weeks when the dreariness of winter envelopes every day. And although it is quite chilly, it is still a beautiful day out there! Yes, it surely is a wonderful day to be alive!

 

This is my eldest son. Isn't he handsome? I love him so very much. Tomorrow will be his 16th birthday. We bought him a new bed for his birthday. A double size. He has been sleeping peacefully in it for a few weeks now. So, as the present thing has already been attended to, for his birthday, I am taking him to the Roads and Traffic Authority in Dubbo so he can sit his Driver Knowledge Test and hopefully obtain his Learners Driving Permit. I also promised him that if he passed, I would let him drive from Dubbo back to his school. He has been studying furiously and doing the online tests. He can pass every time now, but he wants to achieve 100% because his best friend and another friend did this when they got their 'L's'. I certainly don't feel old enough to have a child that is old enough to drive a car.....even if I will be sitting in the passenger seat. The years have gone so very quickly and it makes me kind of sad that I didn't take more time/notice/pay attention in the earlier more innocent years. I was too worried about making sure the bills were paid, there was food on the table, the kids were clothed and alot of other things that distracted me from these precious moments that I can now hardly remember. Oh well, there is no use being sad about all that now, it's not like I can change it.

So, I've shared a bit of the Sunshine in my life, and whereever you are and whatever you are doing today, I do hope you have a Sunshiney day!